Archive for May, 2011

I want to be a quitter… the begining of the “Quit Chronicles”

I have had the desire to quit smoking for many many years now, and I have tried many times. With all the support from my family and friends, I know I can do it, I just haven’t been able to wrap my mind around it. I’m quitting, STRESS. I’m quitting, CHILD FREAKS OUT. I’m quitting, EX HUSBAND IS BEING A JERK. There’s so many excuses I make that I “can’t” do it, when I know I can. Anyone can. Lets get the background. I was an extremely healthy and average kid when I was 15. I started dating a smoker, and with our mutual friends and himself I started smoking, the group I fell into was a set of heavy smokers, drinkers, etc. and it really just hits home. I started at a young age, and I don’t want my daughter to fall into that lifestyle. I want to save money, be able to keep up with my kid, live healthier, lose weight, and be able to exercise without wanting to drop dead out of breath on the kitchen floor after. To not be able to breath after running up and down the stairs doing laundry just kills me, and I don’t like always feeling sick, and being all stinky from the smoke. I CAN DO THIS! I have one cigarette left. In a few moments, I will smoke it. and then I will grab my husband, and throw away the bucket I put all the cigarette butts in. He doesn’t know I’m planning to quit tonight. I’m hoping I can do it. I have a lot of stress moving in on my life right now because of the road trip back home with my daughter in a couple weeks, but I don’t smoke with her in the car and by golly I don’t want to end up stopping every hour to smoke. It’ll take forever to get from California to South Dakota at that rate! I haven’t written in this blog thing for a while, well, since I found out we were going to Hawaii (which is another reason I want to quit), but I am fully motivated to do this. I know I can. Lets see if I can… and I will start the quit chronicles, giving a day by day( or every few days) on the experiences of quitting is doing. I’ve never been able to do it, and I’m going to need a stress relief since I know I get quite cranky. Woo. alright. here we go….

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