Archive for January, 2012


I forgot I had this page. and So much has happened since that last post. The attempt to quit smoking epically failed. I was doing good until just under a week before June 1st, when my husband came home and told me he was deploying in  a week. I’ve never felt so heartbroken in my life. It was as if my life came crashing down, and the feelings of being alone in a place where I knew no one terrified me.
I managed to make it work. The day he deployed, I packed my dog and daughter up and we made the horrible drive from California to South Dakota to stay with family for a month. Thank goodness my (2 year old at the time) daughter was an excellent co-pilot for the trip. she kept me awake and we had a blast pretending we were on an adventure. It was great to see my mom, spend time with my nephew, and to see all my friends again. Although it was short lived when my daughters biological father decided he was going to make a statement which included something of “I’m going to commit suicide” after dropping her off after the 4th of July fireworks… Thank goodness she stays with her grandparents, and they showed up shortly after. I met up with him the next day to talk about everything, and I spoke with his mom (who is close to being my own) about his issues and my concern for him needing help. The next day we headed back to California for my daughter’s safety, and for my own. Plus we had a cat that apparently really missed us while we were gone.

We spent an additional 3 months alone at the house, I learned I had broken my foot, so gimping around while taking care of a 3 year old, a cat, a dog, and doing all the house things was highly difficult, and on top of it the orders for Hawaii came in so I had to get all the Overseas Screenings and such completed, by myself. Mind you, this was new to me. I had NO idea what the hell I was doing, I just grit my teeth and did what I was told.

That deployment was 100 times worse than the first when we were just dating. It was shorter because of his PCS, but it was so heart wrenching. I stayed strong for my kiddo, but I had issues sleeping, eating, getting things done (which didn’t help with the broke foot), and just trying to keep on truckin’.

We were fortunate enough to be able to spend our 1 year anniversary together, and then shortly after all of our goods were packed up, and we were on our way to South Dakota to visit prior to the big move. We spent the entire month of November in SD, and loved every moment of it! Then, we made the super long trek to Hawaii.

That was by far the longest and most stressful plane ride I have ever been on, but once again the kiddo was a trooper. 7 hours from South dakota to Los Angeles, then a 5 hour nap at the USO (thank god for those little places), than a long 6 hour straight flight to Hawaii. Now, as much as the kiddo and I fly now, I admit I’m not very good on planes. I’m terrified of hights, and have a great fear of flying, but I did manage to crochet 4 hats on that flight 🙂 luckily they didn’t trash my hooks.


When we got to Hawaii, it was a week of stays in hotels and cottages waiting for a house to come up. We ended up finding a house out on the town since the wait list was 4 months, and I refused to have Christmas in a hotel. All our household goods were delivered the next day, and we were lucky enough to be able to pick up our car (we shipped the month prior) the day we landed.

So far, it is odd living here. The people and the culture are not what I expected at all, and actually many of the islanders are very unfriendly towards the “Haole” or outsiders. I have run into quite a few that are extremely nice and very helpful, but the farther inland you get, the meaner they get, and then I saw why. But that is for another time.


Soon we will have our dog shipped out here, Rayne is enrolling in T-ball and peewee hockey (I know right?) and the hubby is settling in nicely at his new station. I’m just grateful that no more deployments are to come for 3 years…. as long as nothing bad happens.

Promise to keep up on this blog this time, once I remembered I had it I realized I had completely forgotten to update it since my hubby got back from FEX.

so in all we had



Deployment/trip home

broken foot/ Overseas Screening

End of Deployment



Home for Thanksgiving

and then Moved to Hawaii.
SIGH so much…


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